LESSONS LEARNED // LIFTING THE FUNK.
IT'S BEEN 4 MONTHS TRAVIS, WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN?
Well concerned reader I'm glad you asked. I'm not really sure how to summarize the last 4 months other than saying they were an absolute F@%$^^* roller coaster with a lot of negatives, but more positives than I ever could have imagined.
Remember that awful break up I told you about in June? Turns out it was a lot worse than I thought and f@#^ed me up pretty good. But just like clockwork It led to the creation of my best work, and my best self to date.
ALRIGHT Y'ALL- LETS JUMP IN MY TIME MACHINE AND REVISIT THE HIGHLIGHTS OF THE LAST 4 MONTHS.
The good dudes over at Sandlot Goods shipped me out to Sunny California to make some images for their lifestyle look book, While the trip was an absolute disaster we felt pretty good about the images, I got to get on a plane, and I'm hyped to be making work!
Jake and I finally released our long anticipaed Ferarri project and I am INSANELY hyped at how everything came out. Working alongside Jake for those few months was wonderful. That guy is a straight up wizard.
Go peep the rest of this project over on the behance page HERE.
I got another year older, went to Colorado with Pauly V to shoot a wedding and actually had my first real experience with mountains (that I can remember) that shit was life changing.
October was full of busywork such as Headshots, Events, Retouching, and the beginning of adding product work to my personal book. It's somewhere around here that I started to notice myself getting out of the shitty funk.
November has been one of the best months in a long time. It also marks the 4 year anniversary of losing my dad.
I've been trying really hard to keep it together between his birthday in August, and the Anniversary of his passing in November. In doing so I've come to that weird crossroads where I'm not feeling so much heavy sorrow and sadness. Instead I'm feeling waves of inspiration, comfort, and acceptance. Where tears are turning into smiles, regret is turning into inspiration, and the emptiness is becoming accepted. I'm not really sure how to properly communicate this, and I'd hate for anyone to misunderstand what I'm saying here- but the best way I can describe this situation is that
I literally woke up one day and everything felt like it was going to be okay.
...and it will be okay.
With that said- I've stepped back from social presence both digitally and physically, and really tried to figure out who I am, what I'm doing, and where I'm going. I won't bore you with the findings of my constant question asking to myself- but I'll tell you the most important thing I realized, and thats to just:
I've spent a large amount of time recently being disconnected from just about everyone and everything with the small exception of my job, which has me constantly looking way into the future and all over the past, and in doing so I keep forgetting whats happening right in front of me. So if there's one piece of advice I could give anyone at this point in time it would be to slow down and BE wherever you are. Get the f@#% out of your own way. Look around, appreciate shit, learn shit, remember shit. The saying goes something like this:
"THERE'S NO TIME LIKE THE PRESENT."
I can't tell you what that phrase has done for me, or what it could have done for me. But I can tell you that it is VERY important. Put that one in your back pocket, and make your transition.
OKAY. NOW THAT WE'RE ALL CAUGHT UP- LET'S MOVE ON TO SOME NEW WORK.
A few weeks ago I received a message from Katie about doing a shoot together. Right away I was hyped and we started throwing ideas all over the place. We eventually landed on some sort of automotive lifestyle with a higher end feel similar to a lot of the work coming from the likes of Cadillac, Mercedes, Porsche, etc.
We knew Katie was going to be female talent, so we scoured a local talent agency to find the right male to compliment Katie's look. I want to say we found John almost right away due to his near perfect look for for the aesthetic we wanted.
I knew right away that I wanted to do a proper production shoot with a reserved location, legit talent, a decent vehicle, and a good crew, but grew a little discouraged when 2 of the locations I REALLY wanted fell through, and so did the vehicle I was hoping for.
My plan C quickly became plan A and actually ended up being near perfect. I hopped in my car and drove over to a location and asked if we could shoot there. Right away I was greeted with a hard no, but after a phone call with the business owner we had a pretty great location secured.
After some diligent email sending and a knight in shining armor we had our vehicle secured and we were ready to rock! The location and vehicle were both secured just a few days before the shoot. To say I was getting a little anxious is an understatement.
OKAY. HERE'S A FULL BREAKDOWN OF EVERYTHING WE USED TO MAKE THIS HAPPEN.
1X CANON 5DMKIII
1X SIGMA 50MM F/1.4 ART
1X ROCK N ROLLER MULTICART
1X MACBOOK PRO + TETHERTOOLS DIGISHADE + VAGABOND MINI
1X 15' TETHERTOOLS TETHER CABLE
1X BOUNCE FILL (GOLD/SILVER/WHITE)
3X PAUL C BUFF EINSTEIN
1X 32" SOFTLIGHTER
2X WRINKLED COLOR GELS (BLUE/YELLOW)
AND HERE'S A FULL BREAKDOWN OF EVERYONE THAT MADE IT HAPPEN.
PHOTOGRAPHER: TRAVIS CARROLL
DIGITAL TECH: TRAVIS YOUNG
1ST ASSIST: TOM BARNHARDT
2ND ASSIST / VEHICLE MANAGER: ANDREW FAILS
HAIR/MAKEUP: MICHELE TAYLOR (MICHELE TAYLOR STYLE)
FEMALE TALENT: KATIE MESERKO (HOFFMAN INTERNATIONAL)
MALE TALENT: JOHN MCGREW (HOFFMAN INTERNATIONAL)
I'm pretty excited about how everything played out because this is the first time I've actually been able to make a real production for my own work- from the pre-production packet to location permit, talent, props, to the craft service tables, steamer, hanging wardrobe, etc.
LOOK MA I'M DOING IT! WOOOOOO!
It was SO cool to see how many people were on board and willing to put full effort in to something for my portfolio. I'm so damn grateful and hyped. You guys really are da bomb!
As far as art direction I only really had 1 image in mind- and when we had all of the pieces in place I wasn't in love with it. So we hopped around and tried a bunch of different things until we ran out of time. Thankfully almost every scenario we shot ended up looking awesome and everyone was in high spirits- I'm super hyped with the images we got, and even more hyped about continuing to increase production value as we move forward into 2018.
HUGE THANKS TO Katie, John, Michele, Travis, Tom, Andrew, KC Container, and Aristocrat Motors for the hard work, location, and vehicle! WOOOO!
OK HERE ARE THE IMAGES! TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK!
HERE'S A FEW MORE FROM THE SET (MOST OF THESE ARE NON RETOUCHED WITH THE EXCEPTION OF COLOR CORRECTION.
TO BE REAL-
2017 has been a tough one. Between losing all of my photo gear to theft in March, the awful breakup in June, the loss of my grandmother in September, and leaving my childhood home behind at the end of December- there's been a large amount of loss. HOWEVER with almost every loss has come more gain than I could have ever imagined, and for that I am eternally grateful.
I hope it doesn't take you losing the amount of things that I have to find out where you stand amongst your family and peers, but I can tell you that through my losses I've been ridiculously humbled by the immense amount of support that surrounds me.
It's a shame it took heavy loss for ME to realize what an incredible place I'm in. Maybe if I had opened my eyes a little earlier I could have been aware and done some things differently. This brings me to my earlier statements, and some redundant advice for you.
GET OUT OF YOUR OWN WAY.
THERE'S NO TIME LIKE THE PRESENT.